2nd blog in over a month...

ok, so its february its supposed to be borring and depressing but FUCK! this bad. seriously! i mean really.. i cant believe this shit. i feel pretty fucking horrible. how can weather and lack of ample activity do this to a person? really? 

i like to think that im in control of things, like my moods my actions the things i do ect... but, fuck, these days i dont know.

I AM FUCKING SAD. real fucking sad.

and i dont know what to do about it.

i hate my job.

i dont really like my life.

i think i may like someone alot but i dont know if they like me in return... jesus god, im 25 fucking years old. what am i doing?

i cant cry about this nothing shit forever. 

WHAT DO I DO?!

who am i asking?

why am i doing this?

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