regee inspired christmas music

gives me a feeling inbetween sickness and anger. 

the end.

miss (me) babe

things and stuff

my life involves talking to/listening to some of the most borring people around. but...sometimes i am suprised by how NOT boring some people are. now, i realize that being not boring perhaps implies being interesting but this is not always the case. sometimes not being completly plabeian (yes, i use dictionary.com) just means your crazy though. its odd really, that a person can have nothing at all interesting to say but at the same time be so...(lets check the thesauras again) bonkers. to me, i always associated insanity with a rather interesting personality. i am wrong.

people people people

words words word

things things 

stuffs

r

pancake breakfast

wake up in the morning. peel off the layers from yesterday. nose running yet stuffed up. feels the need to share with "others". monotony accepted. should i continue to question. easier to let it be. dont expect miracles. always be impressed. sniffle. not sad, just cold. cold cold cold world. now. before and later do not exist. chewy fruity sweet but makes my teeth hurt. realizing the inabilities i possess. this characteristic enables a solitary existence. contemplate. accept. disappointment out the window. who left the window open. its cold outside. here take this money. do you need money. gods speed young ones. be careful running into the night. its dark. there are no lights. your all dressed in black. gods speed.

boring boring boring boring

nothing to offer

nothing to say

sorry

rose

the road to valhalla is a bloody battle

there are certain things that really make existing worth while. things like really good food, kittens, sunshine, and.....EPIC POWER VIKING METAL. 

it seems that when i start my days off with these magical sounds, everything is good.

words like nie, battle, valhalla, oden, loki, mead, blood sward, and so on really get me in good spirits. 

Gods Of War (Immortal Version)

Father obented me

I ask thee

raise thy hand

we! the sons of Odin!

await thy command

Born!

under the sign

of the hammer we stand

and here we all may die!

our blood on the ground

the battle horns sound!

Let thy Valkyries fly!!

Down from the sky into the fight

Clutched full of rage!!

full of thunder

and glory

Swords in the wind

crossing the sky

Lords of doom bring an end to their story

Today is the day we Die in the fight

None shall remain..

till last one for night

now Valhalla's calling us immortal

we are gods immortal!

We are Gods Of War!!

Odin

hear the fallen wait

To join thee

by thy side

let Valhalla's gates

Open wide.....

Born! under the sign of the hammer

They lived

and here they fought and died!

There blood on the ground..

The battle horns sound!!

Let thy Valkyries fly!!!

Down from the sky into the fight

Clutched full of rage!!

full of thunder

and glory

Swords in the wind

crossing the sky

Lords of doom bring an end to their story

Today is the day we Die in the fight

None shall remain..

till last one for night

now Valhalla's calling us immortal

we are gods immortal!

We are Gods Of War!!

day after

im tired. im hung over. im done. i cry. i laugh. i feel like ill through up. what an ass i am. today is a good day. though. maybe ill see a movie. maybe i wont.

i had a dream the other day that i was nursing a kitten. 

i think i might be weird.

i found out that without social interaction, boose, and i dont know, some other stuff too probably, i fail to really BE.

or maybe i just am more without.

vices.

-r

dont/do smoke weed and do anything

so i had to walk (yes, walk) like 1/2 a mile or something today. this may not seem like a big deal but i ride bikes so, i hate walking. it takes to long and its borring. i thought, this morning before i went for my walk, that if i smoked weed it would make it more interesting. so i rolled one up and got to stepping. i was taking a bike to the shop, by the way. as i was walking, though, i started to realize things happening in certain sequences. a woman walked by with a dog, as i was about to say hi (or some other way of acknowledging her presence) her cell phone rings. then, i take a few more steps and there is a slight breeze in the trees above, a creepy breeze, a horror movie breeze. more steps, a dog barks. a little further and im looking up at a scary looking house with one window open and ivy growing all over it, dry leaves flying all around it and everything. a car drives by really fast and i drop my bike. this is when i decided smoking weed after watching scary movies for a week or so, and taking a walk wasnt a great idea. a couple of blocks later i had forgotten all about it though. 

by the time i was half way there i had come to the conclusion that the joint walk was the best thing ever. the neighborhood i was walking through was all of a sudden gorgeous. the trees were a number of amazing colors, there were no people running around yelling at eachother, there were even recycling bins on the sidewalks. beautiful.

drugs, huh?

or maybe its just fall and im loosing it.

anythings possible, i guess.

school days

look. i do the inernet too. this means im smart. right. (statement not question)